Taking Responsibility

There comes a time in every person's life where they have to make a decision… to get out of bed before noon. That decision came for me the last few weeks.  I thought I could sleep off my son's night time energy by making it up in the morning. Come to find out my "sleeping in" habits only made the situation worse- go figure.  Below I have an exhibit. You may think that it is two newborns…. but your wrong. What you are really looking at is a newborn who is some mother's third child and a newborn who is some mother's first child.  One that is well behaved when placed on the floor or in a crib and the other that thinks the world is at an end cause mom is not holding him.  Now I am not pointing any fingers but I think newborn number two needs a new mom ;} or at least has to be reallll patient with the mom he's got. I've decided the hardest part of this new mommy thing is knowing nothing. Ok not nothing but really little. Meanwhile, my little Ben is trying so hard to show me the ropes and some days I am hanging onto bedsheets instead. I assume that he is the right kid for the job and somehow Heavenly Father knows our "first children" can and will survive our lack of parenting skills. (It makes sense now why the fourth child always turns out soooo well. I mean think of all that practice their mothers/fathers got).

The latest and greatest on Ben. He is SMILING!!! He just melts my heart, he smiles more and more and more everyday.  Along with the increase twinkle in his eyes, he is also coooing. The miniature human sounds are sooo cute! I have moved Ben up to size one diapers. He probably could still fit into the newborn diapers but he also fits the size one diaper, so size one it is. Below are pictures we took up behind Weber State University at Beus park. It was an amazing fall evening.

I want to say one more thing about taking responsibility-- one that is totally unrelated to Baby Ben.  It is related to watching the things we say. The power of words to wound or heal. In the scriptures you read about "the word" having more power than the sword.  I think it is because words are more eternal in nature. They have to do with not only our physical but spiritual selves. I have been of the opinion that it is ok to express yourself. It is ok to say what you feel.  I still hold to that opinion but now it has a caveat. It is ok to express yourself as long as it is not hurting someone else. If it does hurt someone else-- than perhaps it should be restated or not stated at all. I believe we should lift and not let down. And while I would never physically "harm" some person do I ever emotionally "harm?" I feel like I have, and even recently. For this I am sorry. If you happen to be someone I have hurt with my words and are reading this-- again I am sorry. While words - like daggers can create a world of hurt, they can also heal a broken heart. So I am vowing to take responsibility to watch my words that they are used to strengthen and not attack.