Naps

My whole world seems to revolve around naps. The reason I do or do not do anything, generally has some tie in to a nap. I don't run an errand, because I don't want Ben to fall asleep in the car. I don't call my sister because I need to get Ben down for a nap. I walk around on edge worried that Ben is not falling asleep or he is falling asleep too soon. It is intense. Or maybe it's that I am too intense. I have tried since day one (AKA September 25, 2010) to avoid giving myself guilt trips for everything my son is or is not doing. I don't know if it is my defense mechanism to not get too uptight/controlling.  Some would call it inattention others would call it laziness but I have long since recognized it as-- when something is going wrong I stop acting until I am ready to address the issue. Then I tend to address the issue with a vengeance. In the past this titter totter has tipped me over so now I try to keep a balance between not acting and acting.

So the point of this entry. Motherhood is a new titter totter for me. I can't just pour myself into my writing or photography or exercise (my coping mechanisms)... I have to go at Ben's pace. I have to plan around his sleep schedules and so on the days he doesn't sleep I am a little- tittered out ;) I need a new plan, because I don't think my old one is going to work with little mister shorty.

As for the latest and greatest on Ben, he rolled from his back to his belly and continues to roll, infrequently from his belly to his back, missing a few days here and there. He laughs when I "sneak up" on him and cries when I leave the room-- this is cute to me right now because he just started doing it a few days ago-- I'm sure it will be a little more of a bother soon enough.  Last week Ben had a three day stomachache cause I switched him from my milk to formula milk in his rice cereal. He did not appreciate that. He let me know by making sure I held him every minute, by skipping his naps and by waking up every hour during the night... by the end of the three days I put him up for sale on KSL but didn't get any bids (just kidding) I gave him away to one of my sisters-- he is making a wonderful addition to their family now (just kidding again).

Alright I better get going with the rest of my to do list, Ben is taking a nap.

Summer

We got ourselves the Chronicles of Narnia for our Valentines day present

Valentines day dinner at Olive Garden. Most of it was spent with Will eating his grub while I was feeding Ben in a bathroom stall. Romantic I know.

Sunday afternoon walk