I love my kiddies

I used to write so much more. More thoughts I guess. I don't have time for that now that I'm changing diapers and waiting for Ben to find his shoe. But I do still have thoughts and I think they are valuable. I might just have to ask for a do over someday so I can record some of the gems I'm learning about being a young mother.

For now this is all you get. Having a child(ren) means you fall in love everyday. Deeply. Their pain is your pain their smile makes you smile. It makes you feel totally vunerable- what if something happens to them or what if I am saying something wrong or what if I am not saying enough. What if I spend too much time working or on my phone. What if I miss these years when they are so young and so innocent -- because I'm too busy being worried about how to keep that roof over their heads.

I'm not sure why part of the plan is for us to become mothers. Because that part is hard. and scary. but it is also so wonderful. I hope I can play well my part. I love my kids with everything I am.